does anyone read xanga anymore?

life has been a whirlwind the past 6 months. what i find scary is how much my memory has faded of the past. they are slowly slipping away. is this a sign of old age? sign of stress?

questions going through my mind: am i where i'm meant to be? how do i balance life, esp. when one area of my life calls for massive attention? someone told me this is the beginning of "adulthood"... learning to be responsible, learning to balance life... learning to say a firm "no" to certain things... etc.  the other day, i found myself envying the maturity of a fifty year old woman. i thought to myself, "i can't wait til i'm 40...." and past this awkward stage of growing up. the 20s were nice, but i'm slowly beginning to see that it is a stage of massive growing pains. i'm going through a lot, but i want to learn my lessons well.

hello

I can hear you in the distance.

"And he came and preached peace to you who were far off..." Ephesians 2:17

have you ever closed your eyes and felt like you were spinning?

there is so much swirling in my mind...so many uncertainties, so many questions, so many unknowns, so many what ifs?